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Sometimes I really hate having a character that's chatting away. It's like, "Please go to sleep. I know you've got a lot to say and think and feel and etc., but I'm sick. I'm tired. I need a break. I love how very there you are, but pretty please let me have a break. You will have your time. You know this. So please, please step down from the stage and let someone else chat for awhile." Annoying Chatty Cathy muses. I love when they talk, but sometimes I just need a break.
I also hate when they want to talk, but they have nothing to say. It can be like pulling teeth, and I am not a dentist! It would work best for us all if you figured out what you want to say, work on the words, and then come to me about wanting to voice yourself.
I hate obsessively and compulsively refreshing! But if cookiepie and Firefox and maybe even my computer would just get along, I don't think I'd have this problem! Stupid thing eating my extensions when it updated! And then viciously updating automatically when I try to download an older version! Argh!
I am really excited at the opportunity to write something completely different than I've ever written before, but I'm so freaking afraid I'm going to mess it up and end up looking and sounding like a total idiot. Or worse, a drama whore. :X And I really want to say, "Well, it's not my fault," since on some levels it's not, but there's the reality that, despite the character taking on a life of its own, it did come from my brain. This also makes me wonder which part of my brain it came from, and that makes me a little worried in the sense that "you write what you know".
I hate not knowing if I should post something or not. I'm pretty sure the other person wanted to post it, but I am not sure it's "done". It just sort of gets cut off. But I know it's because the other person had to leave, so I'm not complaining. I just hate not knowing. XD But I figure we'll talk about it tomorrow, maybe tie it up (it shouldn't be long/hard to do), and backdate it to tonightish.
...I am sorry my character is dramafulness, but.... you just came in when it was like BAM! SO MUCH DRAMA! That's not something I can control. And I swear I am working "behind the scenes" so to speak so that it all comes out making sense and that the behavior is explained. It's just.... I cannot just go "OH! GUESS WHAT?!" in the middle of it all (or have my character do it) because it does not feel right to me. It's not how I write, nor is it how it seems it would be. I am, however, doing what I can to drop hints and let it leak out without letting it explode out in a really lame, pathetic way. If you really want to know the details, I am willing to tell you, though please keep an open mind and not judge me as a drama whore. If you look at my other character there, you will note that he is pleasantly not OMG DRAMAFIED despite the fact that of the two, he probably should have been and was the likely candidate for it.
Please, at least wait to see me in action before insulting my abilities (or even lack thereof if that's the case, as it very well might be).
I hate being sick and cranky and tired from a lack of decent sleep, though I like that I'm strangely not GRR RAWR while writing this. I'm in a mellow, drugged up on being sick but not on cold pills, slightly agitated but mostly just in the mood to write and actually use this journal mood. It's weirdly nice.
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